Spell of Struggle and Sufferings

Nazir Ganaie narrates the tale of lost battles in fighting Cancers

Author with his father

The dawn of October 8, 2014 continues to haunt my family, for it took the colours out of my family’s life. I lost my father on this day. The invincible Abdul Karim Ganaie lost his two year battle to cancer. My mother lost her support, her companion and I lost my best friend.

We all lost that day, to Cancer – a catastrophe that engulfs the whole household; that not only affects the body of a patient but drains the families of mental and physical strength, it puts to test the resilience of best of social ties and brings the families’ financials to ruination.

The last day with my Dad is etched in my memory clear as day. I asked my Dad how he was feeling; he said he was ‘alright’. In the last hours- though we didn’t know they were his last- there were no complaints about any pain or complication, he just wanted to talk, to reminisce and to share things. But God had something else in store for us. There was a sudden onslaught of breathlessness and we rushed him to the hospital. It is the God’s call, he said and his last words were “take care of your mother and prove to her that you are the most amazing son.”

The life hasn’t been the same without him. He left a great void in our lives. It wasn’t just the death that hit us but it was seeing a loved one slip a day at a time to the disease. It came as a surprise though it shouldn’t have, for I had seen the same exact story enfold before my very eyes, as a reporter in the middle of writing a series of articles on Cancer.

Way before my dad even got sick, I had been a regular at the Regional Cancer Centre, SKIMS and had been profiling cancer patients, their histories, plight and fight with the dreaded disease. At RCC, (SKIMS) I would spend my days talking to doctors and patients about the disease. I knew who the registered patients were; I knew who were undergoing chemotherapy at the Centre. From top 10 cancers to profiling the cancer hit families, I wrote about it all.

It hadn’t been easy though, for it was difficult to go every day and see those people suffering. I tried to empathise with them and in my naiveté I thought I did, but time told me how insufficient and useless my empathy was to them. I had the statistics, the numbers and even the verbatim on the healthcare, but I only understood the horrors when I found myself at the same institute, barely three months later, in the same queues, with my father. My Dad had started coughing blood and on testing was diagnosed with the small cell carcinoma in left lung.

When the doctors gave me the diagnosis, I was stupefied for a minute – How does one tell a man he’s dying, how does one tell his father who looks as fit as a horse on the outside, that he is on the last leg of his life. I was at ends, but that was just the beginning.

What ensued after my father’s biopsy test results came back positive, was a series of illness, like dominoes falling. It started with me having severe panic attacks followed by my mother and my sister. Being the lone son, the mantle of responsibility had passed on to me, and I wasn’t even equipped to console myself.

Every evening, a battle would ensue in my mind with fright trying to take over the logic, the rationale. Each night, I relived every terrifying moment of that day, every minute at the treatment centre, every word spoken by the doctor, every expression in my Dad’s eyes.

As a reporter when you enquire someone about their issues or disease, you may get the statistics, numbers or the current figures but what one lacks is the feel for these patients, the struggle and the quantum of trauma each one of them undergoes.

The spell of struggle and suffering was far from end. My dad had a difficult time coming to terms with the reality and would often ask me “Why are we coming to SKIMS? Why are we coming to the cancer centre?” the questions I had the hardest time answering.

Slowly and gradually, my father started accepting that it was a little more than just chest pains. Soon after he was put on chemotherapy, the transformation that followed was sudden and shocking. His hair started falling, his face started getting deformed and this, I realised was the most difficult phase in any cancer patient’s life. The medicines that are supposed to cure them make them hate themselves, their bodies.

In Kashmir, where good Medicare is scarce, and central healthcare system is in shambles, for cancer patients, the diagnosis is nothing short of a death sentence. While there is a lack of proper medical infrastructure, there are also no provisions to cater to mental health of the patient. There are no counselling centres or sessions in the healthcare institutions, especially in the tertiary healthcare institute SKIMS. For patients diagnosed with any type of Cancer, it is as if they are left to be living corpses, for even before their bodies fail them, it is their spirit and their will to live that dies.

After witnessing first-hand the lack of guidance and support available to patients, I along with my other journalist and doctor friends started an initiative called the ‘Cancer Free Kashmir’ and took on the task to provide counselling sessions to those in need – the patients and their families.

The year 2015 is marked forever in the memories of 50-year-old Raja Abdullah of Central Kashmir’s Budgam district. Her elder daughter, Yasmeena Akhter was diagnosed with lymphoma at a time when she had just a few months left to her life. She lost her battle to cancer at SKIMS. Today, Raja Abdullah lives with her two little granddaughters and is struggling to survive. She recalls that her daughter, a teacher by profession, would often complain of weakness and had even fallen unconscious on a few occasions in her classrooms. “We took her to the doctor and she was immediately referred to SKIMS, where she was diagnosed with cancer,” a teary eyed grieving mother retells “We sold everything valuable to try to get her the best treatment. But what we got back from the hospital was her dead body.” Abdullah is filled with fear and trauma. “Whenever I hear anybody getting cancer in my vicinity, the level of trauma and distress doubles,” she says.

Shabir Ahmad Thoker, a laborer, had his world come to standstill when on a deceptively normal day, he found his 8-year old boy, Uzair Ahmad, severally pale. He was diagnosed with brain tumor. It was traumatizing for Thoker and his family as they found their little boy was dying. Thoker, who struggled to make his ends meet, resorted to begging to save his son’s life. Uzair passed away within 14 months of undergoing chemotherapy sessions at SKIMS. “The death of my son has shocked me and my wife,” he says, “I blame myself for I was not able to give my son the best treatment here. I sold all my land and took him to Delhi where he underwent surgery.” He says, “My boy was fine, he was getting better, we just had to have follow up follow-up treatment at SKIMS and it did for a while.” “Then, my Uzair was diagnosed with bone-marrow cancer and within a few months he died in severe pain,” wailing Thoker says.

Rich or poor, the story of cancer has the same suffering and pain attached for each and every one. Almost three years have passed after Sumegha Gulati- a friend, a great human being, a brilliant reporter, a fighter, a motivator and a wonderful counsellor, lost her battle to cancer. She passed away at the young age of 26 after a four year battle with Hodgkin’s Lymphoma in Mumbai. For Sumegha, Kashmir was her first love. She would always talk about its picturesque meadows and volatile streets and its hospitable people.  Besides a fellow journalist, Sumegha came as a God sent help to me. For years she had been a good friend and then, Sumegha, the brave heart, turned into the source of my biggest relief. She became my dad’s first counsellor in his time of need. The day when dad’s biopsy test came back positive, Sumegha rang me up and asked me to get ready for the worst days to come. “You have a cancer patient in your family now and it is going to challenge all of you mentally, physically, emotionally and most importantly economically,” she advised. She was like a brave sister who would ring my dad every evening despite her busy schedule in the office and her own fight with the disease. She counselled me and my family, knowing how difficult it is to have someone with cancer in the family. She used to advise us to stay strong and garner all the strength for the days ahead. While she was undergoing cycles of chemotherapies in Tata Hospital in Mumbai, she would always wish to spend the rest of the time in Kashmir to undo that pain. “I see many Kashmiri families coming to Bombay or Delhi with the hope that they get the cure for the disease. However the most of these families are almost under the state of depression without any support from government, social and other organizations,” Gulati would tell me. The melancholic spell for Gulati ended with her death.

Sumegha Gulati (R) with author’s father (C)

In other states, there are a lot of NGOs that help support people suffering for such diseases both physically and financially, while in Kashmir, the trend is quite reverse. “You have drug mafia further ailing the system,” says noted radiologist, Dr Maqbool A Lone.

Gulati did not stop working, and produced several pieces of journalism during her illness. In her last three months of life, she worked on a story for on cancer treatment in India, based on her own time as a patient. She could not finish the project, but managed to record a part of her experience.

A friend’s death is always a shock and she has left so many memories behind. Now Sumegha is free from pain and suffering. Such was her strength and courage that she used to regularly visit my dad at AIIMS and engage with him in laughter therapies. Dad would always tell her that the disease was so tiring, so depressing and so painful but it also bestowed him with a sweet daughter in her.

With cancer being a major health threat to the people across the globe, Kashmir has also witnessed a surge in the number of cases in the past few years with lung cancer topping the list. The lone Regional Cancer Centre, SKIMS, witnesses a heavy rush with nearly 40,000 cases in files, that doctors call follow-ups, visiting it for various kinds of therapies.  The rise in the number of cancer cases could be attributed to larger number of ageing population, unhealthy life styles, and use of various forms of tobacco and related products, unhealthy diet and in most cases, the non-availability of better diagnostic facilities for early detection. According to experts, the top 10 cancers afflicting the Valley are Lung cancer, Esophagus (cancer of food pipe), Stomach, Colon (large intestine cancers), Breast, Brain, Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, Gastro Esophageal, Junction cancer (cancer between the stomach and food pipe), Ovary and Skin cancers.

Leading oncologist and Director, Regional Cancer Centre, SKIMS, Dr Muhammad Maqbool Lone says that the situation in Kashmir is becoming alarming every day, with the highest number of lung cancers cases in the country being found in the people of Kashmir. “The demographics of this disease have changed significantly in the valley. The disease is alarmingly on surge. There are patients hailing from every part of Kashmir including the far flung areas which are diagnosed with this terminal disease,” says Dr Lone. He said that the lung cancer, the cases for which were few and far between till just a few years, has today surpassed every other cancer to become the most common form of cancers across Kashmir valley.

According to researchers, cancer is a generic term for a large group of diseases that can affect any part of the body. Other terms used are malignant tumours and neoplasm. One defining feature of cancer is the rapid creation of abnormal cells that grow beyond their usual boundaries, invade adjoining parts of the body and spread to other organs. This process is referred to as metastasis, a major cause of cancer death.

Screening and cancer detection camps are seldom organized in far off areas. Research work is adversely affected with doctors being overworked managing the heavy load of patients, which affected the quality patient-care. What is worse is the absolute disregard of the authorities regarding the need and importance of research in combating this illness. Directorate of Health Services should also play its role in creating awareness about cancer among the people or to provide for some preliminary diagnostic facilities at various healthcare institutions.

Cancer is not a death sentence; it’s curable with awareness and early detection being the key elements in fighting this malady. What is needed is social mobilization at grass-root level to create awareness and roping in non-profits to organise screenings across the valley. When the public institution is insufficient, mass mobilization is the answer to safeguard the communities and its people.

Nazir Ganaie is a journalist associated with the Kashmir Observer

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