Sixty-three year old Naseema Begum says the family has no choice. The walls of their 70-year old mud and brick home in the congested locality of Batamaloo in Srinagar, may be cracked beyond repair, and the fragile floors may tremble every time they move a step, but there is simply nowhere else to go.
Batamaloo was hit hard by the floods of September 2014. Around 250 people died in Kashmir and 600,000 were displaced when the Jhelum River burst its banks and swallowed parts of the city. Hundreds of villages were also submerged in the deluge. It was described as the biggest floods to have hit the region in a 100 years.
Like the Khan family, thousands of people in Kashmir are still living in derelict and make-shift homes, waiting for rehabilitation.
The estimated economic damage stands at $7-billion but a year on, many are feeling helpless due to minimal efforts from the state government to offer meaningful assistance.
Begum says they cant afford to fix the structure. To dismantle the home, architects have estimated costs as high as 95,000 rupees but the family is not in the situation even to think of rebuilding the house.
My husband (Ghulam Muhammad Khan, 85) is retired and we have no other source of income. The government initially gave us 3,800 rupees but we returned that back to them. After a struggle of running to government offices, we were given 12,600 rupees. Even that cannot make a single room.
We are playing with death by living in this house, but we have nowhere to go. The government has failed us in one year; I dont think they have any plans to help us says Naseemas daughter, Guddi.
Some metres away from Khans home lives Mokhti Begum. A family of nine Mokhti along with her two sons, daughters-in-law and grandchildren have been living in one room for the past year.
Begums home collapsed during the floods and in return the family was given a mere 3,800 rupees compensation from the government.
Government officials came to verify, but we were given just 3,800 rupees ($56) which we have returned back to them. We took credit [a loan] from people to dismantle the half-collapsed structure. It cost us one lakh [100, 000 rupees]; how can we rebuild a home from such a small amount? We are all in trauma. says Gulshan Mokhtis daughter-in-law, who has three daughters.
My husband is an auto driver; the auto was also in the floods. I am not even able to pay the school fee of my daughter for the last ten months. We are running from pillar-to-post for help, but we dont see any hope in sight. adds Gulshan.
For many Kashmiri women, who lost a husband or a son during the violence over the past two decades, in which an estimated 60,000 people have died and between 5-10,000 others said to be missing, the rehabilitation process has been particularly taxing.
For these women, the slow delivery of aid and rehabilitation is part of a larger question of continued injustice in the region.
Take Hameeda Khan, who lost two sons in the ongoing conflict in Kashmir, the devastation to her home lingers even more so, now that her house has been damaged beyond repair.
My two sons died in the two-decades conflict. One was an auto driver who was killed in cross firing in 1994 and the other was a police constable who was killed in a blast in 2000.
My world was lost with them, now the home was left with their memories which [were] washed away by floods says Hameeda.
Hameedas home was damaged beyond repair during the floods but like so many others, she has yet to receive any compensation.
I dont know what to do after this; the floods have given me a big blow. I dont know how to rebuild everything that I have lost. says Hameeda, who along with her two daughters and husband is living in a rented accommodation for the past year.
Still, there are others like Nasreena Begum (60), forced to navigate patriarchal Kashmiri society and the conflict in trying to rebuild her home. A widow for three years, Nasreena has been forced to stop rebuilding her home because of a lack of funds.
When the construction material reaches my home in the middle of the night as the movement of these vehicles is banned during the day they tell me you dont have any man in the family. They feel pity for me as I have to wait for them on the road at night. Rebuilding home is a long struggle for me, she says.
Nasreena, along with her 25-year-old daughter, is living in rented accommodation for the last year. The family has no major source of income.
[The] government paid me 175, 000 INR which was spent in removing the rubbles of the house and laying the foundation. Now I am left with nothing but the name of God.
Rifat Mohidin, based in Srinagar, is currently focusing on stories about women in Kashmir, exploring their realities, their successes and their challenges.
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